Insecurity
I don't know if it is midlife or life changing events but it seems as though I bounce back and forth from a state of feeling so content with all that life offers to feeling so afraid that I will lose everything in a minute. I think of being in the second half of my life which is so empowering and yet scary and so final. I keep telling myself the important statements when I am in that place...."live today as if it is the only day you have; enjoy everything and everyone".....or "look at all the wonderful things to come with the base that is in place"....or "feel relieved that things may be more "settled" in the years to come." It is a weird feeling....one that probably comes in fall more so than other seasons...the changing of trees and temperatures and so shedding of what is known and comfortable to await the new in the Spring.