Tough weekend ahead-mixed statements of emotion

This is rambling, but some sort of release of feelings for me....

A mellow, at times very sad, feeling has stayed with me for almost two weeks now.  This weekend is going to be a mix of emotions that most of us do not want to ever have to visit, but we do as we go through life.  That feeling of being robbed of someone so young and so talented and yet the thought of knowing that God has a plan and takes who he needs, when he needs them.  But the struggle of how it is at human hands that someone is taken just doesn't seem right or just.

At the same time of grief and sadness (the anticipation of what is coming....an overload of feelings) there is a hope that being with family members (especially my own, which Ican't even get all in the same room because of our busy lives) and sharing feelings, emotions....there will be crying and sadness, there will be smiles and joy in the celebration of a life.  There are times in the last week of knowing this was coming that I had a sick feeling in my stomach and yet times that I embraced doing what we have to do.

Give me the strength to allow my feelings and help my family/others through their feelings.

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